i HATE watching forensic files and snapped and all those crazy shows. its ridiculous i know but its crazy, like how can people do things like that? and its amazing how other people can just find the tiniest things ever and find the truth.
to be honest this whole, “losing it” thing kinda creeps me out. at one point i was so scarred of all those illnesses and stuff. im still kinda “AH!” about it all just not as bad. its just weird how the mind works ya know? like you never know. but since ive done the research it usually when you “go crazy” you don’t know youre crazy. it weird. and theres so much.
so ive decided that i think i over think wayyyyyyy too much, which has been my problem for a while now.but oh well. its me and i need to deal lol. so the other day i was remembering back in the olden days when i just graduated and did stupid things. i was so daring adn carefree back then. now im sooo cautious. i kinda feel like a lamesies.
this is just a random blog that i feel liek i need to express all thats in my mind haha. soooo relationships. ive been in an almost 5 year relationship with someone who i do care about very much. i really truely do. i would never want to hurt him or anything but lately i feel as though the relationship or whatever it is considered right now is all about him and i kinda want it to be all about me, or at least half and half as horrible as it may sound. for years its been about him and me taking care of him and loving him and i dont mind it so much, but i do mind it when i dont feel as needed or loved. i just want to be romantic and not fight or anything. were currently on a break and ive been on vacation but i havent realy called him or talked to him too much. i do miss him i truely do. i think im just being a baby haha. its also 4:21 in the morning and i’ve been awake since 6 or 7.
i miss my bed tho. like i said in on vacation and have been sleeping on a couch. goodness i miss my bed haha. i wish i could just sleep anywhere but nooo i have to be picky.. lame haha. okay well this has become a ramble of different issues. so heres my update. we’ll see what’s up.
So aside from this piece of the set we have: the mini bars done, 2 bushes done, andd….. I think that’s it lol. The show is in 9 days as of right now since its exactly 12am. Aye aye aye! I can do this ;) if you really think about it since we have acting and blocking down the hard part is done :D I go to the Dr tmrw at 7 am. I think on top of possible steep I have an ear infection. Ughh I pray I get better soon. Hopefully ill get better soon. :S I’m kinda nervous lol i think its just that I’m stressed…. and I think I’m going to pick up baking. I’ll let you know how it goes.
End of summer goal? I think very much so. Speedy 35
Girls Night sounds pretty good right about now.
Yup. this was me. I built this ALL on my own. and upholstered it too! this was my final project what what had been stressing me out immensely. I got a b
(jerkface teacher) but I’m dealing.:}
